Last night, I got a message from my friend Rin, asking me these questions:
Do you have an absolute favorite song? A song you hear when you are totally down? A song which is able to make you smile though your tears didn’t dry yet?
I was kinda taken aback by this message, really. Partly because I read it at 3:46AM, but mostly because I don’t really know what to answer to these questions. But then a song ran past through my mind. Hysteria.
Everyone knows, well, the one closest to me usually know that Hysteria is my all time favorite song. I can like a song then got bored with it but that’s not the case for Hysteria. It’s up to the point that my brother (who is a big fan of Muse) asked me why I like Hysteria so much even though Muse is not my favorite rock band (it’s Linkin Park). When he asked me this, I’m not really sure why because I never really think about it. But after Rin asked me, it’s just then that I realized why I like it very much.
You see, I was going through a very rough time during my 2nd and 3rd year of high school (around 2006-2007). There’s something happened that made me hated by most of my friends, so I literally have almost no friend at school. Not long after, that my mother fell severely sick that I thought I’m going to lost her, and my father was very shocked because of this and for some unknown reason he stopped talking to me. So yeah, the conclusion is that I went through one of the hardest time I’ve ever had in my life.
Ever since all these bad things happened, I cried a lot and didn’t really know who am I supposed to talk to, so I started to listen to many songs. I somehow stumbled upon Hysteria. I’ve been a fan of Muse for quite a long time, but I’ve never heard Hysteria before. I like it instantly at the first play so I put it in my mp3 player and carried it around and listened to it every time I felt lonely, especially at school, when no one’s talking to me but rather talking about me.
This is where my fondness of this song came from. Since I used this song repeatedly to protect and conceal myself from the negativeness I got from other people, I remember it as some kind of my shield. This is why I can’t hate or got bored of this song even if I wanted to because in my mind, this song is kinda my savior back then, and if it’s not because of this song, I don’t think I will last in high school.
And now, 6-7 years after it happened, Hysteria is still one the most played song I got in my playlist.